When I talk to myself, sometimes I call myself my dead name, or my gender I don’t associate myself with. I am self-aware enough to know I’ve associated myself as male and [name] for thirty-seven years, but it annoys me I haven’t made that connection in my brain somewhere that yes, I’m a girl, my name is Eshe. I feel it in my soul, so why is my brain being such an ass?
I’m sure it’s normal as brain plasticity takes time to reshape the neuron pathways and memory links. Give your brain and inner voice some time to get to know your new self and it will come.
Don’t be so hard on yourself!
Cheers!