Bro this is literally all in your head. 99.9 don’t give a fuck what you do or don’t do, either positively or negatively.
I’d you want to show it, show it. If you want to keep it for you, keep it. But it’s not about other people. It’s about you making YOUR choice.
Ok that sucks but are the pillows any good? 15 bucks would be a steal for a good pillow.