I’m a transmasc demiboy, but I don’t really like to present myself very masculine. I still love wearing skirts, I like painting my nails, even wearing light makeup.

I’m not happy about the idea of having facial hair or a deeper voice, which is why I have not yet started HRT, even though I’ll probably need to in some capacity since I do want phalloplasty in the future.

I also have no desire for top surgery since I don’t want to lose sensation in my nipples, and I don’t want to have scars on my chest. They don’t bother me anyway, they’re small (about an A cup). Just about the only masculine thing I do is that I cut my hair short, not super short, but still shorter than what would be considered feminine.

Is this normal? Does anyone else have similar experiences? I’ve been told I don’t act enough like a boy and that I need to be more masculine.