even just one

i was referring to the meaning behind the poem as well as the act of sharing it publicly like this

thanks, but i don’t feel very proud of this

Even on mbin where I can’t see your pronouns, your username itself is Emily. There’s no excuse for their behavior.

I’d love to know why you think it’s okay to insult her like that.

matrix regular here, vouching for uni: confirmed legit ✨💖✨

looking at your pics, i am unable to even imagine you as anything other than a cute girl ✨🎀✨

and i’m completely serious about my envy 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

OMG WTF!!!

HOW are you this GORGEOUS?!?

that figure! the long thick flowing hair! those legs! and then the dress, bow, and socks to show it all off!!

my envy burns 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

(seriously wtf, you are ✨gorgeous✨)

Have you been in a codependent relationship?

i can tell you about my last relationship privately, but it was obviously very different to your current situation

LGBTQ people are some of the most caring, sweet, and loving people

without question, i know this to be true of you

Just get started and follow what calls you

as you unearth your true self and undergo the journey into that unsettling unknown, don’t let the uncertainty upset your unending urge for authenticity and self actualization

i send you love 🪄✨💖💜💗💜💖✨

at this point, i’m not planning to go. i have no one to go with me, don’t own or feel comfortable having a weapon, and live in a generally unsafe place (Louisiana). i’ll attempt to go to a support group next month. right now i have no one.

i’ve never gone, and this encapsulates some of my many fears and doubts.

i’m really sorry that happened to you, and i hope that you have real friends in your life now that are there for you ❤️

Thank you for making this community ❤️

I hope that Nev has something to share here soon 💝

I’ve checked out fetlife, but it unfortunately requires javascript, which is a hard pass from me. I don’t feel comfortable accessing sites that block users like me. The reason that I use kbin/mbin is because it does not require javascript at all. Account creation and use of the platform are free from that requirement, giving me a better user experience and increased privacy.

Thank you for the suggestion though ❤️

I appreciate the recommendation, but there really aren’t any mobile apps that are compatible with my Librem 5 phone. I run Linux, and I’m not comfortable running “traditional” apps that contain surveillance malware and engage in data harvesting. Social websites generally tend to require too much personal information, and so I feel banned from those platforms. I’m very glad to have access to the fediverse. Without it, I would have nothing.

I’m going to try to go to Pride events for the first time in my life and see if I can find anyone.

Well I’m thankfully close to the Greater New Orleans Area, instead of being totally isolated from blue cities. As a last resort, I might try to work up the courage to go to Pride stuff this year, but I’m so nervous of large crowds of people and evereything being recorded for social media now. If it weren’t for all of the cameras, I might actually be able to find LGBTQ+ people during carnival time.

Thank you for the luck 🍀 😊

Thanks cowboy, and yes it’s been nice.

Thank you for the reminder for myself and others that read this thread. Yes, I am aware of the dangers and the necessity of public meetings, and I’d probably bring a family member with me if I actually find someone here to meet.

Thank you for the well wishes and support.

You’re in southeast Louisiana? Do you happen to use Matrix? I’d rather not join things like Discord if I can help it, and I’m not really a gamer. My laptop probably couldn’t handle running steam anyway.

Unless you have fuck loads of cash I’d say settle in for the long haul and cope,

😢

unless you’re like some boomer with a house?

😢

I take it you’re in the US?

yeah, in the deep south 😢

Is there insurance that covers it maybe?

😢

Laser, you mean on face or genitalia?

everywhere. i’m pretty much done with face now and have been focusing on genital region. i’ll be doing electro of remaining light facial hairs soon.

i’ve learned some good info from this thread, that laser isn’t technically necessary, that electro is also not technicaly necessary, and idk. i’ve already paid for several sessions, so i’m gonna get 'em done and take it from there.

i wish this were easier. i wish that i could just push the button. i wish it didn’t have to be this way.

thank you for your reply ❤️

My surgeon did electro as part of the operation and I have had no problems over a year out with hair.

Wow, I had no idea this was even possible. I’m learning quite a lot recently.

what surgical technique interests you

I think you’ve already seen my messages about that in one of the Matrix chat rooms. If not, I can elaborate here or there.

how you’re paying

I usually pay for things using cash that I withdraw from my checking/savings.

if you have insurance coverage

I currently have Medicare coverage.

how far you’re willing to travel

If I need to flee the country, I’ll do it.

what your cost limits are

I’m willing to empty my savings and, if necessary, sell access to my body. I need the surgery.

what you think about each individual surgeon

What I think I really need is to actually talk to one or more surgeons in-person so that I can know what to expect, and as I said before, I really don’t wanna be on a waiting list for more than a year. That and the cost are the main reasons I’m considering evacuating to the west coast.

I’m hoping that I can get letters from my GP (who prescribes my HRT) and my Psychiatrist (who knows I’m only interested in the letter), and I figure that the letters do not expire and can be taken out of state if I evacuate. Is this correct?

Thank you for all of the help to start me off in my research. ❤️