I certainly don’t know all the factors but I can be sure in the fact that the blockade of Russia, the US vs China trade wars (Which the US kindly dragged all his allies into) are certainly part of the issue, the fact that the dollar is on the road to collapsing is could be another factor. And times of crisis the proletariat gets angry and the system tries to diverge this anger towards facism (today somewhat embodied in the Ukraine war) in order to prevent a socialist revolution, which is something that in this moments is essential that is made the focus of the masses. Proletariat of the world, UNITE!
I don’t have much to come into mind about the heartache but I’d like to address the beginning of your post, my dear comrade do not ever feel ashamed of talking about yourself in a place like this and in a situation like yours, friendship and love are the strong bonds that hold the revolutionary spirit together. You did not disliked the fact that other comrades talked about their issues and their heartaches, why would yours be any different, know that we are one team every one for each other, and we stand together in both the personal as well as on the collective, that’s what it means to UNITE!