Thanks. I’m feeling much better now but will still reply. I tried not to do those things as I was in a dark place and now have to channel my thoughts in a more productive way… now focusing on family and development more, kind of forcing it. And it helped me a lot though it’s far from a perfect journey. Try reading my other comment replies!

Thank you for the help brother. I recently had a short dream of her where she tried to be lovey dovey to me but I didn’t show love, it’s kinda weird but I think that says something lol. Also focusing on family:)

Thank you for the advice brother. I created as much distance i could, and used to think of contacting her again, but forced myself to stick to my decision. It feels like that part of my brain that once used to pulse with love is now turned off. Although I hadn’t felt love in a long time in my relationship either. I focused on myself and did professional and personal development. I’m sure I am on the right path right now!

Honestly I’d say we had set boundaries and were following them. The problem came so more at the end of the relationship when her sending me pics (even spicy ones) or slightly reciprocating love verbally was seen by me as an indication of being in a relationship still. She claims it changed a month ago but never said it’s over between us concretely, neither did I ask, so that’s on me. Now I just think of what I would have did wrong, but just decided to listen to Astroworld and now I’m feeling like I wanna focus on improving my life instead. It’s fire.

My first love felt special because she was the e-girl people were after, kinda, and she carried me in Minecraft lol. But in hindsight both of us dreamed too far and misled each other into expectations. Your boy was so carried away he thought it’d be for life :(

Gotta say our relationship was a good chunk of emotional abuse too lol, except that we worked on that and slowly overcame problems. Now that I think of it perhaps we should have ended, but understanding how to act on disagreements really helped ngl.

I agree with you, I think love is a beautiful force but your boy does have a delicate heart! So when I fell for it I FELL FOR IT and now it feels hard feeling like a single person, it’s been two years. Good thing is that I feel no hate for her or her bf, bad thing is I’m questioning every decision I made in the relationship amd whether it was right or wrong. I’m also way below average (bottom tier) so it’s gonna be even harder irl man. <3

Hey thanks for the input.

Does kinda hit hard because it’s been a while since I was single. When I asked her when we “broke up”, she said it’s been a month but never concretely expressed it. I think I let the boundaries be too lose man.

Your boy fell too hard in love lol. I thought she was a cheater but I’ll pass on that then, it was partially my fault too.

It’s interesting though, I posted this twice on reddit and once here, I’ve received 1 ESH, 1 NTA and 1 NAH