It relates to stuk, which means broken in this context. It can also mean a piece. You could read it as (broken) into pieces.

In my opinion: imagine storing bunch of fruit and vegetables into a large skip and let it sit for months in hot sunlight. The smell is like the result. The amalgamation of strong plant based fermentation is so strong the nose associates it with cheese or garbage. The texture, again in my opinion is the only pleasant part of it; soft and creamy, and the flavour isn’t much better than the smell, albeit a bit sweeter.

German, as well as other germanic languages aside from English actually use verb second structure. True, that the main part sits at the end if there is an auxiliary verb. Example word for word translation would be: Tomorrow go I to school. Or Yesterday have I cake eaten. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/V2_word_order

I find this monologue amazing as it reveals so much about someone with narcissistic personality only that the character has more self awareness than the typical narcissist.

I’d have some ideas but I wouldn’t spoil other attempts. Also I just quickly typed it out, spelling and grammar be damned.

Gustavo was stuck and he tried to push past his anxiety arising from the lack of direction on what actions to take. Realising the incompatible between his competance and the challenge before him would make him chuckle, were it not for being in such danger. As he focused he became aware of a buzzing sensation. He and the beast locked eye contact. The buzz became overwhelming, electrifying, and he only could give in to it. He sensed some pattern emerging, as if his ears would pick out a sound, not unlike seeing ships or elephants in clouds. As if he was spoken to from within a dream he was sure he could hear the monster say “help us help us help us” to him. Not saying, but screaming. Each iteration more clear and more panic inducing. Abruptly the buzzing stopped and the troll turned around, running down the hall away from him.

What happens if you replace the last break in main() with exit()?

You seem to be in a state of crisis. The Internet mightn’t be the best place to reach out for support, but support is what you need. Check in your location for a free help line (perhaps suicide hotline).

What other posters said, respond with the blinking. My son calls them eye kisses. It shows trust. In case you’re unfamiliar: you look at her and slowly close your eyes for a second. She might mirror it. Facing a fierce predator such as the one you pictured and confronting it willingly blinded, even for a second, takes courage. She’ll honour it most likely. Also food and clean water, preferably placed in separate locations.

I like learning languages so with that in mind: German, Dutch, French, Swedish, Estonian, Russian, Afrikaans, Japanese, Mandarin, Korean, Irish and Latin. I don’t speak all of them thought.

That’s some dedication. You checked all the actuators, but did you check the sensors as well? A speculation might be that, if one of them is busted, the controller stalls in error. I’m not sure what the story is with minicom reporting the serial being unavailable but if you have another microcontroller on which you could enable serial, you might be able to see more details. From my own experience, I would wire up a Raspberry Pi Pico, let it run Micropython REPL via USB to see if it catches anything at all. This way you are monitoring the serial before it goes through USB and the OS.

Childhood trauma affect people in lots of different ways. Some learn to retreat inward, preferring to live in their own mind over learning to emotionally connect with others. This could look like autism on surface level, however autism doesn’t result from trauma and is accompanied with an array of other signs and behaviours. If you’re still seeing a psychologist, try to work towards opening up your early experiences, especially how you remember your attempts to cope with the world. This is not easy of course but it could help to see yourself as an object of curiosity. Also keep in mind that it is hard to find a therapist who feels right to connect and open up to, even for the average person, so this might be more challenging for you. I hope this helps a bit.

There’s a lot to unpack there, and I don’t want to appear qualified to help you over this medium. In therapy you could get to the bottom of this, but it takes a lot of work and time. Please have a look into Dialectical behavior therapy, as this seems applicable for the picture you painted about your experience.

Have you thought about why you do this? What prompts you to seek help? If you want to cease this behaviour, do you know why? Is it because it doesn’t feel right, as in it’s not “you”, or is it because of the consequences? What worries you, should you live more authentic and truthful, about your social interactions and relationships? Envisioning that folks in most cases react very well if one takes their mendacious mask of, how do you feel about that? Change is hard and those are some questions I just came up with that should prompt you to contemplate in order to understand the root of these behaviours. No need to answer them here.

Don’t remember the movie or show but on aired in Korea I saw they would blur out parts such as cigarettes as well as arm pits (male actor) and a chef’s knife (prop was being held with the actors intention to defend herself).

Freshly cut Ytong blocks. Ink of ballpoint pens.

One day he was going on about Kiki, how she does things in a certain way and I kept him going by say how interesting it was. He then turned to me and asked “You know that Kiki isn’t real, right, I made her up?”. He doesn’t like lying or being lied to, so within that frame I guess he wanted me to confirm that it was just play.

Our child has one. Her name is Kiki and she lives on a farm where she drives her tractors in a village called Plamplams. She speaks also an imaginary language. It seems like she represents experience he lives through vicariously expressing some image he has on how he fits in this world. We as his parents have always encouraged him; it is wonderful how he develops such creative images.

From your writing it seems you have a lot of insight and are very self aware. Use this as your strength. Not sure how you’re faring in regards to alexithymia but this tends to be a blindspot for folks with trauma and autism spectrum condition. Matching your needs with your internal states (vis a vis your emotions) will go a long way to manage your life so it’s worth living. Don’t get hung up on labels too much but they are useful as a shortcut to learn from others and their similar experiences.

Couldn’t figure it out but perhaps that’s why i felt it’s off. Mightn’t be incorrect per se like someone else points out but not something I’d chose to caption something.