I feel the need to say beforehand, I’m slightly drunk right now, and my inhibitions are lowered by this, but this has been bothering me lately.

I don’t know of I need some kind of help. I’ve kind of become enamored with a “slutty, bimbo” look for myself, wearing really short booty shorts and really short crop tops, and wanting to adopt a “slutty” lifestyle. I’ve always liked the idea of being indiscriminate of my partners. I want to say, though, I can’t right now, since she left.

Depressing thoughts aside, should I talk to my therapist about this? I don’t want to end up using sex to cope with my mental deficiencies, but, my mind is equating what I’ve always wanted in a partner is what I’ve really wanted for myself.

I’m ashamed of being slut-shamed, or my kids seeing me with multiple sexual partners. I know it is too early to think about sex, but I’m really self conscious about my innate desire to dress and be slutty. I’m sorry if I’m oversharing, but I don’t know what to do with this part of myself.

  • Blahaj_Blast@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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    11 months ago

    Yeah I would definitely talk to a (Hopefully allied) therapist.

    I have a theory that when you’re wondering about something like transition, you want a clear answer. If I try something sort of gender neutral but on the other side, well people might not notice and also I might not get a big feeling from it. If I try something more extreme, maybe I’ll feel a stronger reaction and figure out “omg this is what I needed” or “no I definitely don’t actually want this afterall”.