When I talk to myself, sometimes I call myself my dead name, or my gender I don’t associate myself with. I am self-aware enough to know I’ve associated myself as male and [name] for thirty-seven years, but it annoys me I haven’t made that connection in my brain somewhere that yes, I’m a girl, my name is Eshe. I feel it in my soul, so why is my brain being such an ass?
It seems normal to call yourself something accidentally that you called yourself for years. Don’t fall into the trap of thinking it means something it doesn’t. It’s just an old habit. It doesn’t make you someone you’re not. ♥️