I feel you there on most of that. (Except for the money thing, Iām disabled, chronically ill, unable to work, and canāt get a shred of monetary support from the shit government, so Iām hilariously broke and have literally zero money lmao)
Another reason for me, that you may also care about and want to add to your list, is that no matter what method I use or how I go about it, someone will have to find a body (or remnants of one) and will likely be traumatizedā¦ I just canāt bring myself to do that to someone. I wouldnāt be able to make it to where only someone who deserves the worst would find it.
I mostly just wish I could make it to where I never was born or existed in the first place, ya know?
Idk, it probably doesnāt really help to know that youāre not the only one feeling this way, but I thought Iād say something just in case. If Iām gonna be forced to exist, I wanna try to help people however I can when Iām able and have the energy and my useless, broken brain and body let me and everything.
Youāre not alone and Iām so fucking sorry youāre feeling this way. Iām sorry youāve gotta live and exist when you donāt want to. I know how much it sucks. Itās miserable and Iām sorry. I hope things improve for you somehow very soon. Internet hugs to you, if you want them. š«
Why die when you can live out of spite?
That is one of the reasons I havenāt killed myself yet
I feel you there on most of that. (Except for the money thing, Iām disabled, chronically ill, unable to work, and canāt get a shred of monetary support from the shit government, so Iām hilariously broke and have literally zero money lmao)
Another reason for me, that you may also care about and want to add to your list, is that no matter what method I use or how I go about it, someone will have to find a body (or remnants of one) and will likely be traumatizedā¦ I just canāt bring myself to do that to someone. I wouldnāt be able to make it to where only someone who deserves the worst would find it.
I mostly just wish I could make it to where I never was born or existed in the first place, ya know?
Idk, it probably doesnāt really help to know that youāre not the only one feeling this way, but I thought Iād say something just in case. If Iām gonna be forced to exist, I wanna try to help people however I can when Iām able and have the energy and my useless, broken brain and body let me and everything.
Youāre not alone and Iām so fucking sorry youāre feeling this way. Iām sorry youāve gotta live and exist when you donāt want to. I know how much it sucks. Itās miserable and Iām sorry. I hope things improve for you somehow very soon. Internet hugs to you, if you want them. š«