International Day of Happiness 🤣
I have been really struggling with my health at the moment, more than usual, with my autoimmune disease. Yesterday my specialist mentioned there is a possibility that I have a very serious side effect of my autoimmune disease. This is the sort of serious complication that has a 5-year mortality of 30-50%, so it is pretty nasty. It is about as bad as it gets with this particular disease. Now I have to go off for further tests and wait about a month to hear. I am trying not to overthink, but then also, surely they wouldn’t have bought up something so nasty unless they were fairly certain, right? I really don’t know what to think about it all, and since I have decided to keep it to myself unless it’s confirmed, I am going to vent to you guys.
Vent away friend.
I suppose I am just getting it out of my system chatting to you guys. I don’t want to get too worried cause it seems ridiculous for something not confirmed yet, but it’s hard not to think worst case.
Of course. I have a rule not to worry until you have to worry but gee that can be hard at times.
The best thing about this community is you can let loose and you’ve got nothing but support here.
That is usually my ethos, too, but it’s hard with this one. Still, I know that once I get it out with you guys, I’ll forget about it in a day or two. I do appreciate the support here. It’s why I felt comfortable posting it.
Waiting for test results is the worst. Vent away here whenever you need to scream into the void.
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so much love and hugs
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It is the equinox today and boy the darker evenings are getting noticeable.
I’m going to miss the light evenings so much. It’s depressing being in out in dark doing stuff after work every day.
totally agree. With more and more folks living in the city now I’m not sure why we continue with it TBH. We’ve got a mental health crisis, this feels like a real easy cheap thing to help, even if its barely a drop in the ocean.
I don’t usually have issues with daylight savings but this year has really knocked me about for some reason. Maybe it’s hitting the big five oh? Maybe it’s exhaustion from the “work-home-go to sleep for God’s sake please kids” cycle? I’ve found the darker evenings comforting, whereas when I was younger I loved the extra daylight on a gorgeous evening (more time to enjoy beverage indulgence).
Finally got some musical inspiration back!!! It’s been over 3 months since I’ve written anything. Fuck it feels good!
To briefly bitch:
What the fuck is the point of paying for delivery if it’s going to end up at a storage facility that’s only open during office hours.
Fuck off Team Global Express and JB Hi-Fi. Not worth the $15 extra I paid for delivery. Was already having a really shite day.
Exterminate.
Haha, I appreciate that mate, actually made my day a little bit
I’ve been listening to these “true story” YouTube channels lately.
Just general tales of dangerous or weird situations people have been through.
A few days after I started, I realised something and felt very stupid for not thinking of it earlier:
What counts as danger for a woman is completely different than what I would consider danger. Situations that I would consider a nuisance can be life or death for a woman. Something as simple as a weird looking guy walking up to chat to me can turn into utter chaos for a woman.
It’s opened my eyes in a really big way, and like I said, I feel dumb as fuck for not thinking about it sooner.
/rant incoming.
spoiler
Glad to hear you’ve seen the light. Not being ironic here, all too few men get this. Complicated by the fact that for a very long time indeed (and still continues a bit) the ideal of ‘feminine’ beauty has been to appear as small, weak and fragile as possible for their body type. And hampered by constrictive clothing and stupid shoes. This includes highly invasive surgery and horribly restrictive lifestyles to appear smaller and skinnier than their natural body. Just glance at any high fashion magazine or look at any movie or tv show. Even the ‘strong’ women have to have at least something about them that screams “I can be victimised!” to appear ‘feminine’ to Hollywood and most mass market publications. Even the ones marketing ‘health’. Just look at the shoes in Sex in the City. Or how scrawny most Hollywood ‘heroines’ are. Even the ones toting guns. This weird situation appears to be changing a bit, but still has a long way to go. It’s still far too true that the most dangerous place to be a woman is still in their home - the stats on domestic violence are horrifying. Random violence from strangers is a lot less dangerous statistically speaking, but gets a LOT more publicity. I am so glad I am no longer young, and am therefore a lot less vulnerable. It’s been one of the most liberating things that has ever happened to me.
Just threw two couches out at the tip. No one wanted them :( tried to donate but no go.
Have to say everyone there was a middle aged bloke taking all their aggression out on throwing inanimate objects into the pit was hilarious.
For me it was the end of an era. The amount of times I parked my arse on those things… ate, spilled food, wine, all the movies, the discussions had good and bad, … almost had me teary.
RIP two couches :( I will never forget you.
Farewell dear couches 🍺
Have to get up really fkn early tomorrow, to start my trial shift at 8am.
I have to catch the tram at approx 6.20am. 😱 least it’s only 4 hours and not a full day lol.
If they accept me, I’ll be asking for Arvo shifts for sure.
Good luck.
So disappointed at the lack of rain. Grrr. Feels like everything has stayed grimy and dusty.
Gotta haul myself outta bed. Cmon now…
I’ve done everything I can to summon rain 😔
Was lucky enough to get the first place we applied for (and I know we are very, very lucky in that regard!!), but now begins the moving process which I hate so much. This will be my 8th move in 12 years and I haven’t learned to stress less during it. Coupled with this being the busiest time of year at work, I might just be a total idiot. But the place is cute and I’m excited!
I have just realised my car is now 18 years old. Does that mean it is eligible to get its own driver’s license and become a self-driving car?
Total sleep was 4 hours, and today’s going to be the most intense and active of the trip. They hired some drongo gardener to start cutting the lawn at 7:05am for some stupid bloody reason so I lost out on 30 extra mins of sleep. Also waking up when it’s 12° is very hard and difficult and this is why I’m gonna pack up my shit and move to marble bar at the earliest opportunity
Once you’re on the plane you can have a snooze. I’m a chronic non-sleeper myself the night before a flight, always get nervous I’ll miss it! Happens to lots of people, nothing to worry about. Airport is full of bleary eyed people stumbling through. Hopefully all goes smoothly for your trip!
I’m one of those people that can’t sleep in public. I can never fall asleep on trains, trams, planes, buses, etc. I don’t even fall asleep in cars
You’ll be ok Baku. Once you’re on the plane you’ll start to get excited and your adrenalin will kick in. Make sure you take some gum with you and chew it on take off and landing. Have a great time in Adelaide.
Good idea. If I find some at the airport that isn’t extortionately priced I will buy
Cloudy day in Adelaide (this was taken out the plane window)
Look out, look out
It’s a flying baku
Beware below or he might…,
Can confirm, it’s bloody windy here too, quite chilly compared to the previous week’s 30c+ days.
It was a bit cloudy when we left Melbourne, but no clouds at all after we crossed about Melton, then heaps of clouds again in Adelaide
Just looked at tonight’s low temp - and for the next week. Time to put the doona back on the bed after summer I think.
Adelaide day! I’m dishevelled, disorganised, and discombobulated. Flights out at 12, gotta be at the old ‘port by 10:30. Lift arranged for 9:30, but I don’t actually have a travel bag, so my clothes are gonna be packed in Coles’ bags until we pick up the worker who’s coming with me who said I can borrow a bag. I haven’t packed anything yet.
Despite not having packed yet, I have been busy all day cleaning. I decided I’d clean up my room so that when I get back I’ve got a nice clean room to crash into, and I also decided to wash my bedding and wardrobe things. So lots of washing, and lots of cleaning. Also decided to clean my toilet and bathroom because hey! That’s more important than making sure I actually have stuff to wear, right??? 🤦🏼♂️🤦🏼♂️🤦🏼♂️. My bedding still isn’t dry, still got half an hour to go at least.
Oh it’s also been brought to my attention that the gronky security people would probably put most of my things in the bin, because my deodorant, mouthwash, etc, are all “too big”. So I’ll need to buy some in Adelaide
I’m a nervous traveller, in case you can’t tell…
They don’t care about liquid container size for domestic flights AFAIK. Hope you wake up refreshed and have a seamless flight!
Oh. Hopefully. Thanks J_K, total sleep time was about 4 hours, so I’ll be running on fumes but I should be right
Finally going to sleep. It’s 2:30 now, and 2 things could happen:
- I fall asleep instantly 2: I’m up for another hour trying to sleep
Wish me luck sleeping lemmings
It’s gonna be great and you’ll be ok. Welcome to the big family of people that start random chores instead of packing then panic pack at midnight (I’m much older then you and still do it like this). Your future self will thank you for the clean room!
Have a ball - you’ll be awesome
Welcome to the big family of people that start random chores instead of packing then panic pack at midnight
No please I don’t want
Thanks g, i reckon I’ll probably be mid tier at best, but I’ll try
You can get mini bottles to decant most toiletries into from your local $2 shop. Won’t help with deodorant if you use spray, but most other things should work.
Not going to have time for $2 shops before I go unfortunately, but once I get to Adelaide I’ll try to figure it all out
C’mon and join the Adelaide parade https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0z5X47T1ZhY
Nope you’ve gone too obscure, yo no comprendo tu referencia
Dear lord today was inteeeense but really good progress and feeling so ecstatic that I can blast through a lot in two days and then… Pack it up and put it away until next week. Realistically this position probably needs 3 days a week but I’m so glad it won’t ever be full time - so I have much more manageable expectations. No need to take any of it home, no need to feel fully invested in it. Go in, punch out what’s needed, maybe make some process improvements, go home. And SUCH a drastic difference in team and management support compared to my old job! Now to follow up on some leads for casual work on the other three days…
I seriously need to figure out a budget for a car though, getting there and back by PT let alone bike is a nightmare, 500x easier by car.
So good to hear it’s going well!!
